A grill more or less bygone regret and OCD?
Okay guys, this is going to be long, but please bare with me? Im a older teen surrounded by need of some help. Alright, I am an 18 year old mannish, just about to graduate highschool and get a sports car on my own. This past year has put me in a downward spiral of passion depressed and hopeless about myself. A little over a year ago, my childhood friend called me to a party, shortly after I be picked up by 2 drag queens, another homosexual, and my friend. Im not sure why I went, but it upsets me that I had gone. So we get in attendance, and honest to god there are like 15 homosexuals dressed in drag, so i sit on the couch alone for awhile (trying to take in the situation and ponder what I got myself into) so a touch awhile passes and we smoke a blunt of marijuana, then i decided to amble home because this wasnt my crowd(not to label myself, but i hang out with preppy types/football players) so this be very different to me. Anyways, I recently purchased a large inspection of new clothes and shoes for summer online, and they are expected here this weekend, So yesterday I had gotten some beer with my friend dave and help him move into his new house. I was given a box with boots within it, and had asked "whos are these?" and they were ambers (a lesbian friend of the drag queens) immediatly I had a flashback of compulsive thoughts due to my first encounter next to them.. Now I feel like a failure and a scumbag for one put into these few situations, and I have actually stopped taking care of my personal self, living up to this "scumbag" heading i associate myself with. I have stopped liking myself once these compulsive thoughts started, and I perceive that when i recieve my new shipment of clothes, once I touch them ill spread the newly acquire germs from the lesbian girl ambers boots to my new clothes, and also the car I will be getting for graduation. I dont mean to bid anyone scummy, but this lesbian and dragqueens were, which is why I am very depressed and ashamed of myself for being put into these situations. If anyone will please bear the time to read this and give me hope on this subject I will be very appreciative, these compulsive thoughts are keeping me from being the verbs cut, healthy kid i once was. Thanks!
Best Answer: It seems as though the participant has instilled some "dirty" feelings in you. Do you mistrust becoming one of them? Perhaps the party did shock you and caused a little bit of trauma, thus the flashbacks. What I suggest you do the subsequent time you have a compulsive thought or flashback is to try and set your mind on something pure. Imagine nature, the four seasons, river flow, flowers while repeating to yourself that you are verbs, you are who you define yourself to be, 'I, David, am a person who is _________, who likes _________.' Keep at this for a few minutes until you quality fresh and have gained back your confidence and identity. I am not sure whether this technique will work or not. I importantly suggest that you speak with a mental health professional, preferably a psychologist for your case. Please do not be afraid of psychologists due to doesn`t matter what stigma or pride. I am sure you do not want the condition to worsen any further. I really hope that you get this sorted out. You are most welcomed to contact me on my profile page should further assistance be required. All the best and take perfectionism.
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